It is like watching a scene in a scary movie. You know there is something that is making you afraid but you are not sure what it is. Just when you think the worst will happen a curious cat jumps out of the shadows which makes you laugh. It not what you had built up in your mind after all is it?

This is what lifting the veil is like. You peek through it with one eye not sure of what you will find. You might do this a few times before you are really ready to pull that veil all the way down. The reality of the current energy is that there is no time to really peek and retreat. Once you put that intention out there, the veil is pulled down for you. 

Now what!

You do have some options. 

Taking a breath is the first.
 
Followed by curiosity rather than fear. 

If you can look at a situation with a question of “I wonder why” rather than “Oh crap here I go again” the solution will come with grace and ease. ​

Setting some time for yourself to sit with these questions and writing out the responses will help you release the energy around the emotion from your answers. (I personally think of it like a mind dump - having someplace to hold those ideas and questions while observing and waiting for answers.) 

Putting words to paper is like setting a butterfly free. You are giving the words wings to fly energetically to the universe where intentions can be returned as your manifestations. 

The answers to these questions will open yourself to deeper exploration. Yes, the veil may lift, however we can explore, assimilate, integrate and grow with curiosity and non attachment.
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If there is one thing we can all agree on is that there is some crazy stuff happening in the world right now. I am not one to follow the news, politics or any of that however you cannot be a resident of this planet without being affected, or informed about the happenings in some fashion.

I have been observing some rather interesting patterns during client sessions. Many people are currently dealing with energy misalignments around vulnerability and feeling very energy sensitive to others. 

This affects the day to day experience. I was not really sure what that was all about until I saw the recent energy update from Lee Harris. His theme for the month of June and July was about power and vulnerability.

Bingo!

For those of you who may not be familiar with shields let me give you the Coles notes version. A shield is an energetic field that surrounds your soul essence, top, bottom and sides, front and back. The purpose of the shields are to deflect low dense vibrational energy that would not serve your highest good. The soul can never be broken or damaged and does not need fixing, however, the energy around it can get disrupted with low dense vibration causing misinformation and leaving you feeling vulnerable. 

Think of it like listening to a radio station and static interferes with the song. The energy disruption may interrupt the clarity in your guidance that you are seeking. 

“Hold on a minute!” you might be saying, “wasn’t that addressed in my initial session.” 

Yes, for many there may have been shields missing and that would have been corrected. The shields respond to what we are attracting to us through our understanding and intention. (The old saying energy flows where intention goes.) Current global environment is creating a nervous energy and this information is relayed into the grids where of course we are connected. Being energy sensitives it can be overwhelming and throw us off by creating responses that we don’t quite understand.

Think of a goalie in a hockey net who is used to a certain skill level of a team and then all of a sudden an Olympic team shows up. The goalie is going to have to stretch themselves to a new level of deflecting and protecting that net. A different strategy and perception would be required than the familiar one being accessed. Once the goalie understands how this Olympic team operates the level of his/her ability raises and can effectively protect the net.

This is the same of your shields operating in a new paradigm shift of energy. Your awareness and the ability to address disruptive or lower vibration and where it is originating modulates the shields to deflect the incoming energy.

Using self care and clearing any resistant energies that are activated raises your vibration to align with new energy updates and guides the shields.

Clients are feeling that they are not safe, feeling outside their comfort zone or perhaps they  are experiencing something new which is unexplained. This is because they have tapped into the nervous energy being played out in the global consciousness right now. The power struggle among those in positions of authority will affect those who are energy sensitive. 

Where are you seeing a power struggle in your own life? 

Is it with people in your relationships?
 
Are you feeling this internally? 

Does it feel as though you are disempowered? 


Vulnerability and power are closely related. If we deny our vulnerability it will cause struggle to embody being our empowered self. This may show up in our life by not being able to trust. You many notice that you have trouble surrendering and letting go to allow your inner guidance  be your life compass.

Power imbalances may show up when our actions may affect another persons vulnerability. Those around us mirror back to us what our current state is. Are we projecting our emotions onto them and then seeing it mirrored back to us? 

We may even energetically take on the vulnerability of another as they project on to us or in the case of accessing their energy through our connections. This creates difficulty because we are acting on a vulnerability that is not actually our own. I am sure you have experienced a situation that your life is flowing smoothly, you have great emotions but then seemingly out of left field you start to feel nervous and doubt yourself. If you explore a little deeper someone in your relationship circle may be having a lot of fear or angst and you are picking up on their energy not your own. Take a moment and reflect how watching news reports, social media posts and passionate discussions with others leaves you feeling upset, angry or nervous where you were not that before hand. 

You may be in the position of not pushing into your power in life but rather questioning what power is. There is a current paradigm shift from the old patterns of -  what am I getting and, I am not safe unless I take power from others. Your vulnerability is asking - am I safe,  will I be taken care of if I do this and, what happens to people in my life if my path changes?

The power comes from understanding the connections. The connections to self, to others, to what is currently active in front of us and when we recognize we are more than just our self and see connection to the wholeness of ONE we can comprehend the scope of being plugged into the cosmic energy consciousness.

It was so refreshing to clients to understand:

• Why they may be feeling vulnerable.
• Where it is originating from.
• What is the purpose of it.

The empowerment of knowledge creates the safe space to stand in that power with a vulnerability that is not disempowering. This knowledge gave them the confidence to release the nervous energy they may be inadvertently connecting to and with that understanding their shields can deflect what is not in their highest good.

I thought about the length of this post and perhaps I should prepare it in smaller versions. Then I thought about what it represents and I am over short versions. As really I am relating to the long haul, the journey and the path along with which we travel. So I will not apologize for the length, I will however invite you to pour yourself a bevy of choice, put your feet up and take a moment to read this. I hope you enjoy the story and perhaps share your own inspirational journey with me.

This story begins in Winnipeg and ends in British Columbia.

Some 38 years ago when I first heard a name Terry Fox, I had no idea what his journey would mean to me personally.

For those of you who may not be familiar with Terry’s story let me share a bit about it. 

This tenacious and determined young man was born in Winnipeg Manitoba in 1958. A city I know well as I was born there in 1956. His mother Betty would become a cheerleader and advocate for his cause something that I can relate to having had the amazing opportunity to do so for my family. He grew up in Port Coquitlam British Columbia and loved sports. Something I do not share although I do admire those who can and do have talent and the ability find joy participating in various sports. Terry competed in basketball and cross country running. He had the mental toughness to succeed. I on the other hand always doubted my abilities in life and did not have much confidence to stand in any kind of power in my early years.

In March 9, 1977, Terry discovers that he has a malignant tumour in his right leg which results in being amputated above the knee. In my life I was planning a September wedding to my high school sweetheart. Terry’s life being impacted by a diagnosis and mine starting a life full of adventure and hope, both of us unaware what life would require of us. Each one at different ends of a scale both with equal opportunity to dig deep when life goes sideways.

Terry’s heroes journey begins the month of February 1979 as he decides to train for a run across Canada from the east to west coast to raise money and awareness for Cancer research. 

April 12, 1980, Terry dips his artificial leg in the Atlantic ocean in St. John’s Newfoundland and begins his marathon as he runs 43 km (23 miles) per day which takes him through 6 provinces. I have visited St. John’s Newfoundland as my very dear friend and Soul Genesis mentor resides just outside the city. It is a breath taking province with beautiful but rugged terrain. I cannot fathom running along side the highway in winds and weather that can be hurricane quality. Terry did, with his small crew following behind in a van collecting the funds that the scores of people in various communities were giving and being there when he needed rest.

In the year 1978 until 1981 my life was in the city of Thunder Bay, Ontario. My husband’s career had us living in the port city with beautiful Lake Superior and amazing landscapes. 

September 1,1980 after 143 days and 5,373 kilometres (3,339 miles) in a news conference held in Thunder Bay, it was announced that Terry’s primary cancer had spread to his lungs and his Marathon of Hope would be suspended while he received treatment. My husband and I heard this sad news while we were on holiday in Toronto, Ontario. I remember weeping feeling so sad and compassion for the handsome, curly haired young man who brought a nation together in courage and hope. His message to the country was “I’m gonna do my very best. I’ll fight. I promise I won’t give up.”

Sadly on June 28, 1981 Terry dies in New Westminster British Columbia just shy of his 23rd birthday. 

My life has now been moved to another northern town and in time my husband and I settle in Mississauga Ontario, just outside of Toronto.

The Terry Fox foundation to date has raised $750 million worldwide for cancer research. Betty Fox became the spokesperson and familiar face at the events. Before her death in 2011 she had spoken to more than 400,000 school children and her parting words in every speech, “Never, ever give up on your dreams.”

My life carried on with the birth of 2 children. We returned to Thunder Bay one summer on a family vacation and took our children to view the statue of the young man that they learned about in school. It was a poignant moment and it will be a several years before my husband and I return.

As our children grow and we go through life transitions that only family can bring about, I have many times had to dig deep into my resources to find strength and courage to fight and to not give up. 

Through this period I am learning new knowledge through many self awareness courses, certifications in wholistic practices and have started to help people through their own life transitions. 

In 2013 my husband was one of the casualties of the economy and after 16 years working globally for a company found himself in the land of unemployment. It was devastating news however with his skill set he was not too concerned that the opportunities would come. The wait was on and on and on. 

As the realization that the economy was not aligning opportunities we decided in 2015 to relocate to British Columbia. Our destination was not totally defined however we had strong feelings to around the Coquitlam or Abbotsford area. The early dream to retire in this province was going to become a reality, except we were not ready to hang up our businesses and thought it would a nice gateway to a slower pace for that next transition. 

Then life throws a curve ball. The kind that takes your breath away and has you grasping on for dear life.

Through all the planning and the moving and the packing my husband had his right foot in a cast resulting in me doing the all the preparation work. A May injury to his ankle results in many trips to Drs. before the correct diagnosis is given. 

Nothing is going to stop us. My husband has Terry’s mental toughness to succeed and determination to make his dreams come true. I was not sure about my own abilities. The sale of our home is to be finalized on Oct 1, and another curve ball, seriously the universe really had us in the “dug out”. 

Our 38th wedding anniversary was on that September 23 and we celebrated that day in the hospital. The cast had been removed earlier in the month and my husband was in a walking boot. This created a small wound which in 3 days became a raging infection. And yes, for those who are wondering he is a diabetic. The announcement came on September 22 that his right leg would need to be amputated below the knee. 

“Hold on….did you say amputated?” We have a move happening, our house is closing in 9 days! The whirlwind of activity that took place and the love that started pouring over us was like a Tsunami. 

The surgery took place and I shall share more about that another time of how the universe has your back and I say that with complete utter trust and confidence. 

The rehabilitation was quick and my husband very focused. The goals he had printed on the white board in his room was out by Christmas driving by February. Which of course he did make happen. 

We set up household in a rental condo with only the necessary boxes unpacked. We settled into the new life, the hallway of never again and not yet. I found myself having to physically be able to move locations, care for a husband who was recovering from a surgery that for a period of time left his mobility limited, while dealing with my own dreams being crushed. Totally, vaporized. 

I was not only in a hallway I was in what felt like the hallway of hell. Of course I was not alone my husband felt the weight of how his life would continue from this point in time. Our fear, anxiety, anger, grief was the emotion of the day. Some days we could support each other completely and other days all we could muster was getting out of bed. 

I had self help tools that I had been collecting for about 14 years. My journey of spirituality and self awareness gave me quite the selection. I did from time to time require a friend or mentor to shine some light for me when it got too dark. I had early on decided I would honour myself with what I called “Barbara’s pity party” for a maximum of 15 minutes per day. I could rant, swear, stomp, scream, or cry and then that was it until the next day. The rest of the day was about moving forward, creating positive moments, planning dreaming and building. I still had clients to work with and I did not want to let them down. I did learn during that time that I did have mental toughness, I did have courage and I could do anything I put my energy into. Talk about a mind blowing freaking ah ha moment! My “pity parties” became fewer and fewer.

As we both healed and life became the new normal British Columbia still beckoned. However the emotional and financial toll on us was heavy and when my sister who is my earth angel, and yes they are real (and that too shall be another time and story) extended help by moving in with them in Manitoba it became a full circle.

So with boxes packed yet again, my husband and I took to the highway. Each in our own car, music blaring and the big city lights in our rear view mirror. The prairie town where our story began is in the windshield.

A few days before our departure I have a dream and I see Terry Fox running along the highway. He had a distinguishing hop and run and I could see it very clearly.

I felt that determination, the never give up attitude.

It was not myself who could be compared to this young man as it was my husband who had the life altering amputation.

I was the “crew”, coming along in support.

I am sure Betty Fox had dreams and aspirations for her son and family and then became the spokes person for others who experience the outcome of Cancer. 

The night before we arrived in Thunder Bay the decision was made to stop at the Terry Fox memorial site.

​It was a beautiful drive. The hills and turns of the highway as you drive along Lakes and rocks is a motorcyclists heaven I am sure. For me as always when I have returned to Thunder Bay I have a deep connection, a soul connection and that day was no different. The Sleeping Giant or Nanabijou as it is known in the Ojibway traditions has always held a special place in my heart.

As I approach the park my husband is waiting. Together we join hands and walk along the path up ahead to the statue. So large, so commanding, like Terry was. We both take our time walking around the statue and each of us wiping tears from our eyes. Each in our own space of what the past few years of this life transition has held. Each of us deep in thought about the young man who brought a country together, inspired others to live their dreams and lived a full life. There happened to be a young man just about to leave when I approached and ask if he would mind taking a picture and he says “sure”.

My husband and I with our arms around each other smile, knowing that “we won’t give up”, that we will “never, never give up on our dreams.”