 This week is a double whammy! Our son turned 35 on Tuesday and Mother’s Day on Sunday! I can’t believe the time has flown by so fast. It just seems like yesterday that I celebrated my first Mothers Day. Of course our son was 1 week old and I oscillated between extreme joy of being a first time mother to extreme fear of being a first time mother. I WAS TERRIFIED TO BE A MOM! Can you relate? It was a big decision to start a family. In fact it was so big it took 7 years of decision. It seemed my husband and I were never really on the same page at the same time until the 7th year. According to Joanne Walmsley who writes on what numbers mean - “Angel Number 7 tells of learning new skills, listening to your own inner-knowing, and stepping out of your comfort zone in order to further develop and advance on all levels.” Well I tell ya, that's a truth bomb right there! There is nothing like having a baby to learn new life skills, and I was totally out of my comfort zone. I second guessed any inner knowing and yet there was a stirring in me that I connected with this little being. I guess having him in my body for 9 months will do that. Our start off to parenthood was a long and trying labour. I won’t bore you with the details but lets just say 35 years later I still remember it like yesterday! My fear of not being able to care for a child was at an all time high. We had no family near by and I felt like a fish out of water. Back in those days you were kept in the hospital for about 1 week and because of the baby being jaundiced we stayed a couple of extra days. I was secretly relieved until the doctor announced it was time to be discharged. I asked if we could stay a bit longer. The doctor inquired as to how long and I replied “until he is 18”. Yup, I was dead serious. Well, the hospital did not see my version of parenting and sent us home. Those first few days were a roller coaster of emotions. Hormones at an all time high! My husband reflects on that week and did not know who cried more the baby or I. But life did settle down and being a mom became more and more comfortable. 3 years later with my confidence installed we welcomed our daughter. My momma mantra was “You did not come with a manual and I am doing the best I can with the tools I got.” Thank God, they did not realize how limited my toolbox was! Remember this was in days before computers, Google, parenting blogs and don’t get me started on feeling the energy because I was not plugged in at all. My Dr. Spock Guide to Parenting was dog eared. As I read the book the information did not resonate. It almost seemed alien…no Star Trek pun intended. As time went on I began to listen more and more to my inner-knowing. I developed and advanced on all levels as my interests into the realm of energy grew. My wish for a parenting manual came into existence and it is one that resonates deeply. My children are grownups however I am still a mom. Parenting never stops, it deepens and morphs as they become adults. It is a fine dance to be supportive and observe and give guidance when asked. And step the heck back when not asked! The body of work that provided the information to parent not only effectively but consciously... is Soul Genesis. Soul Genesis is a deep body of work that outlines your souls blueprint. Why you are who you are and what you are here to experience. In true transparency I have no profile on my son as it is not of interest to him. My daughter did ask to have her profile completed when she was older and it was amazing. It explained to both her and I who she was at her core. I also showed how we have some similar traits and why we understand and also trigger each other. It was so beautiful for me as a mom to see the depth of her soul. Although I do not have access to my son's soul essence I do understand my role in his life through my own blueprint, and that has helped me understand our mom/son relationship. Soul Genesis gave me the dance steps to guide, observe and keep my opinions mostly to myself (remember earlier I wrote about being out of my comfort zone as part of my learning and developing..will just say I am continuing to learn when to lead and when to follow) as I enter into the parent/adult relationship. Do I still mess up? Yes! Am I still terrified being a mom? Somedays! I have reflected if having this knowledge would have been of benefit when guiding my children in their formative years. I always get a resounding yes. I have the understanding that there is divine timing and I was not ready to have certain information sooner than I did. I needed to have experienced my own growth before I understood the depth of theirs. I love working with parents who have a soul profile compiled for their children, after they have had their own done. It is like handing them a Universe Guide to Conscious Parenting. They never look at their child through the same lens again. They truly see them for the gift, the wise one and the perfect divine being. And let me tell you whether you are parenting a 2 year old through a tantrum or a 16 year old with attitude we have the choice to see them through the eyes of the universe in that moment as a conscious parent. You still will want to lock yourself in the bathroom for quiet time away from toddlers. You may have to count to 100 before you explode when your teenager rolls their eyes and mutters under their breath how you nag them... because they have ignored your pleas to stop leaving unfinished plates of food in their room. I can relate and understand my children from an energetic point. When repeating patterns are showing up and why. The soul contracts being fulfilled and my child's contribution to the growth of the planet. It is a different energetic time on this earth and dare I say a different way to parent. I am happy that I decided to become a mother. Being a parent is the hardest relationship I have ever entered into as it is a level of vulnerability that can be so raw and yet so beautiful at the same time. I have learned a lot about myself on this journey called motherhood that started 35 years ago.  They may leave the nest but they leave an imprint on your heart forever. Enjoy Mother's day as a child, a parent, step parent, co parent, grandparent, aunt, friend. As you honour the celebration of birth, growth, nurturing and learning of self and others. I am happy to help. I may not be able to prevent your teenager from leaving plates of unfinished food in their room but... I can supply a guide to understand the why. If you have questions about Soul Genesis and conscious parenting. Until next time,
Barbara Your Guide Through Life Transitions
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